Eight Fears

1) Breaking/losing a tooth! In hygiene school, these were recurring nightmares.. my favorite of the teeth dreams was my teeth dissolving!

2) I fear change. Its so scary doing something new... Good and wonderful things come of it and I'm thankful for all the good that happens with the new, I just hate saying goodbye.

3) I fear being abducted in a parking lot. I always have my keys laced in between my fingers so I'm ready to strike if it were to ever come to that. I also never park by vans.

4) I fear animals. Horses, frogs, opossums...Their unpredictability puts me on edge.

5) Germs.. a little. I'm just very aware of them.

6) I fear hurting my wrists. I've already had surgery on one.. but I can't afford to let them get hurt again!

7) I fear getting sick.. as I shared earlier, I'm a bit of a hypochondriac.

8) I'm naturally a worrier. Last night and this morning, I was particularly fearing my interview with the dental hygiene temping agency. What if there's no work available? What if I don't make a good enough impression? I've been fearing looking for work for awhile now. My two fellow dental hygiene friends have found work. Now its my turn. The job market out here is tough though. There's just not much work available for hygienists. I fear rejection, failing, and feeling lost. As I read an email I received from an instructor replying that she would be honored to be a reference on my resume, tears came to my eyes as I remembered having all the same fears going into dental hygiene school. I didn't know anyone, I was afraid of failing and I felt lost. But dental hygiene school was the best thing that ever happened to me-- I learned a lot about myself, I gained confidence, I met so many wonderful people, and made some of my very best friends. None of that would have happened without change. I miss hygiene school terribly but I'm learning change can lead to good things too. God's never left my side before, why would He now? I am so thankful for where God has led me.  So, I gave my stress to God. He can handle it; and He will if I let Him. As I went to my interview this morning, I had this peace. The interview went so great! And I have my first temping position on Monday! It had JUST opened up :) God is so good. I love Him. I feel like it was His way of saying, "See? I gotcha!"

¹¹ For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. ¹² Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. ¹³ You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.” 

-Jeremiah 29: 11-13